Yay! Yay! Yay!

I had a great apt at the Dr.! Every thing looked good, not great but good, good enough! No bed rest, no surgical procedures! I still am not allowed to do massage, or nanny 4 little munchkins but I can try and find a desk job! Hopefully I'll be able to find something considering the current economy! I'm just so happy! I'm also having so much fun feeling the little guy moving all around now! I think he's training for the Olympics already! There are moments he just goes! No flutters, he's doing flips and kicks, maybe he'll be a gymnast! LOL

Also I have a few prego pics. They make me look bigger then I am I think, so does Brent. They were taken right before bed which is when my belly pops out! Honest I wake up and it's like half the size it was, I'm sure one day I'll wake up and it will all still be there but for now that's the pattern happening! So for your viewing pleasure here's 'my bump, my bump my lovely baby bump!'

Yeah this was taken when I was on bed rest so I dont think I'd showered in a couple days let alone bothered to get ready/do my hair and makeup!

Seriously So Blessed

There is this blog that I enjoy reading. It's a parody of all of us Mormon bloggers who's lives are "Seriously So Blessed." It kind of makes fun of how we always have the best, husband, children, homes, family, cloths, home, ward, calling, etc. I'm making sure to tell you what this blog is all about because the first time I read it I just read...."I love this blog it's so great" So when I went and read it I was mildly offended and shocked that there could be a woman as "holier then thou" as this woman. Once I realized it was intended to be comedic then I got it! And now think it's pretty funny! Ok now that you have been warned here it is Seriously So Blessed enjoy! Oh it also has fun give aways pretty often!

So I was talking with a friend about this blog and it got me to wondering if I do this? I don't want to be the person who's life is unrealistically perfect. So be prepared for honesty from now on. Not that I'm going to be a downer, I still think life is much better if you can find the positive!

So here is some honesty. I'm a little scared. I know everything should be fine, but I'm a little nervous. Mostly I think because this is all so unknown to me and I feel ignorant about everything going on. I'm also a little pissed! I feel so irritated that I'm even having complications. Come on! It took us so long to get pregnant, and I put my body through so much don't I deserve to just have an easy uncomplicated pregnancy?!?! Oh and part of me just feels weak. Weak that my body can't handle pregnancy like a normal person. Weak that I can't continue along my normal life, when I don't even really look pregnant yet!!! All of that aside 5 months ago I would have said I would gladly been on bed rest for all 9 months if that's what it took! So honest what ever it takes! I'm still over joyed to be pregnant, no matter how long the road is, I will travel it to get a healthy baby to our home, our arms, our family!! Now to get ready for my apt! I am hoping for the best and preparing for the worst! Update to come soon!!

What a Difference a Day Makes

This is a little long but the past couple days have been a roller coaster ride!!!

I mentioned in my last post that I've been having contractions. They are not serious. It's a little early to be feeling Braxton Hicks contractions but I felt baby move a little early so I just chalked it up to high awareness of my body. I called and talked to the Dr. office they said, as long as I didn't have 5 an hr. for 2 consecutive hrs. and they are not painful, or accompanied by any other symptoms it's ok. That was Monday. Despite hearing that, I was still concerned. I called & talked to Mom friends who echoed the same things, not typical but normal & ok. Still concerned. I read online everything says contractions this early are fine. But there was still something in me that said, something is not ok. I called the Dr. again they tried to reassure me but I said I think I just need to come in. So I did! At this point I was pretty sure they would tell me no massage since I had noticed an increase in contractions during and after giving a massage. But I figured other then that they would say, you're just being a paranoid first time Mom. That is what I wanted to hear. I just wanted to hear it from my Dr.!

I was sitting in the room waiting for my Dr. and she walks in and says, you're not allowed to be having contractions yet! Which made me think, humm maybe there is more room for concern then what everyone is telling me! But she said the same thing I had heard multiple times. She wanted to check everything else too, just to be safe. During the ultra sound I said, is there any way we can find out what we are having (of course after texting Brent to see if he cared or it he wanted to be here for that). She said humm it's still early probably not but we'll check. After looking and looking she said it looks like a BOY!!!! We are not running out and to buy stuff yet (I'm not running anywhere :) she said wait a couple more weeks to be 100% sure but she's pretty confidant! I also got to bring these home!



If you look really close you can see a little arrow pointing to a little penis!!

So after the ultra sound Dr. came in and gave me the bad news. My cervix is way to short! They like to see it 4-5 cm. mine is only 1.5. So she said moderate bed rest, lots of rest, lots of fluids. She also mentioned a procedure called a Cervical Cerclage which would basically be sewing my cervix shut. Sent me home on moderate bed rest! With an apt to come back on Fri. to be recheck. That night when I went home I was keeping track of contractions and they just kept coming and coming. I ended up going to the ER to be checked out, and make sure everything was ok. My Dr. had told me to just go to Labor and Deliver if I needed to go in so once I was finally up there the got out the Doppler thingy to check baby's heart beat. She looked and looked, and we didn't hear anything. Finally I heard one, but thought, that is way too slow, then I realized that it was my heartbeat! After she had searched for a couple minutes and only found my heart beat so she decided to try the ultra sound machine. I almost had a panic attack! My heart sank I was doing everything to hold back tears as my mind is racing. They had always been able to find his heart beat that way! I was fearing the worst. All I could think is I can't do this. I can't loose him now! I've already felt him move! I know it's a him! Oh I can't handle this! I prayed with everything I had! I have never know such fear in my life!! It felt like an eternity before she came back with the ultra sound machine. As soon as she started I was searching for that little beating heart. The second I found it, the tears just flowed! There it was that little tiny heart fluttering away. A little life still safe and growing! There are no words for the relief that rushed over me! It was fun for Brent to be there since he had not heard the heart beat, or seen an ultra sound (other then pics) yet. And as if to say "Hi Mom and Dad I'm just fine" little baby boy waved his arm at us! I can't believe how much I love this little Nutterbutter already!

So on Wed. I was doing nothing but sitting and laying around counting and timing contractions and drinking and peeing! I thought what a difference a day makes, yesterday I was giving a massage, then working chasing 4 kids around, with no restriction and now I've become as lazy as my dogs! LOL But the support and friendship I felt was amazing. Just from a status update on facebook I had so many people offer any help I needed and offer meals, or help cleaning. That same morning the Dr. called and said she didn't want to wait till Fri. so she wanted me to come in to the hospital where she was on-call that day and be checked there and come prepared for the cerclage, no food or water after midnight.

Thurs. I went it and got registered and situated in a room and was just laying there watching tv when little baby boy started doing jumping jacks! I had my hand on my stomach and felt it with my hand too! That made me really excited because that meant Brent should be able to start feeling him move now too! It was so fun to feel him moving around and then have the ultra sound people come in and do the ultra sound, where I could see AND feel him moving! AWESOME!! The ultra sound went really well! I measured 3.3!!!!!! Which is in the ok zone! But my Dr. said that a cervix doesn't usually regenerate and rebuild that quickly so one of the readings was probably wrong. But she took me off of bed red with instructions to continue to take it easy. So no work. I'm no so happy about that. But whatever it takes to get this little guy here safe and sound! I have to go back on Tues for another ultra sound I'm hoping and praying that the 1st reading was the wrong one! And I can continue to go about life just taking it easy! My Dr. did mention she might want me to go see a high risk pregnancy specialist to get a more specialised opinion but for today I'm doing good and expect it to stay that way!

So again the difference a day makes! Yesterday I was on bed rest preparing for a surgical procedure and today I'm off bed rest and things look good! Things are going to be just fine! It might be a long road to get him here but that just seems to be our lot in adding to our family :) Brent is thinking we should name him something that means pain in the butt to get here!!! I think I agree! LOL Whatever it takes! It will be worth it! I'm so grateful for the spirit/mothers intuition/good body awareness that prompted me to go the Dr! And that I've been in tune with my body! My Dr. said multiple times how glad she was that I'm able to feel the contractions since most people cant at this stage! There are many blessings to count in all of this! Like we already know it's a boy! And I can have finger nails again since I can't do massage. And modern medicine! My grandma lost several pregnancies, it's very likely because of an incompetent cervix, so I'm very grateful for ultra sounds that can monitor that! And most important, despite some scary moments, both baby and mama are fine!!!!

A Little Bit of This A Little Bit of That

Well it seems I posted a blog and then disappeared for three weeks! Oops! So rather then write a detailed blog I'm just going to highlight somethings :)


I am grateful! Grateful to all of your for your kind and loving words of congratulations!! To answer some questions I'm feeling GREAT! I haven't had any morning sickness at all and I've been so gratefully for that!!! We don't really care if we have a boy or girl. Honest. I never really believed people when they said that, but I guess now I will since it's how I feel! I'm sure if we have another I'll care then, but with our first it really doesn't matter! People have asked if I'm starting to show, I would say yes although the rest of the world might not agree! LOL I've gained a little weight, my pants no longer fit right but I really don't look pregnant. BUT my stomach is bigger then it used to be and I can tell a difference!!!





I had the flu. It was awful, I thought I might die! Maybe it's because I'm pregnant but it was the worst flu I've ever had! I threw up for 5 hrs straight. By the end almost every 10-15 min. and it was just stomach bile and blood! But the interesting part to me was the fact that the Dr. was more interested in the last time I had gone pee?!?! Which I was able to do just in the nick of time! Other wise it would have been off to the ER for us! I was glad Brent was such a trouper and when I was finally able to keep down some liquid went downstairs every hour to get me a refill. He took such good care of me!





Good part of the flu, yes there was a good part! I felt little Nutter butter flutter for the first time! Around 1 in the morning when I was finally able to keep some pedialite down I felt a little flutter!! I'm pretty sure Nutterbutter was doing a happy dance to finally get some food! I've been feeling some little "bubbles" since then and think that's what it is but being a first time Mom I' m not entirely sure!! But I really do think I'm feeling little baby movements!



One really bad part of the flu, I got super dehydrated! Which has now started causing Braxton Hicks contractions. That really freaked me out when I call the Dr. and they confirmed that that's what's going on. I thought that wasn't supposed to happen till the 3rd trimester. But apparently that starts at 6 weeks!! People just don't usually feel them till later on. I was really freaked out till I talked to a few Mom friends who confirmed it's normal and ok as long as they aren't consistent, painful, or accompanied with other symptoms. So I drink, drink, drink, and then pee, pee, pee. Oh well! I'm pregnant and everything is ok I'll move to the bathroom if I have to! Life is great I'm pregnant!!



Have you ever thought your feet/heels are dry? I bet they are not as bad as Brent's! He put a hole in our sheets with his dry feet!!! And yet the man refuses to get a pedicure! I've actually woken up to his feet scratching the sheets (I'm sure mostly because I'm pregnant and not sleeping as well but still) I try and help, I give him an at home pedicure but man I'm telling ya! So now I make him wear socks to bed. He doesn't like this so I put socks on him at night, yeah picture it! It's funny!


Also I had a housekeeper come and clean my house for me (this is in no way bragging, actually more the opposite, it's admittance that I'm not a very good housekeeper! And just FYI I traded for massage couldn't afford it otherwise) because I was SOO behind. I just needed someone to help me catch up. Well I'm definitely pregnant because after they left I went upstairs and literally got tears in my eyes that my bedroom and bathroom were so beautiful and clean! Yep very pregnant and hormonal! Thought I'd share because it was silly and funny!

PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's a miracle! I know it's a miracle whenever a baby is conceived but for those of you who might be unaware this one is truly a miracle! I'll share the whole story but in case you just want the details here they are:

I'm at 14 weeks

Due date Sept 17

There is one perfect baby!

We found out Jan. 16th at about 5:30 pm a moment in our lives we will NEVER forget!! And despite the length of this post there are no words to describe the joy we have found in this!!!

What follows I warn is too much information, too personal, and WAY too long! Do not feel obligated to read. I've just felt like infertility has been such a huge factor in my life the past couple years that I wasn't ready to share with the whole world. Now that we are finally pregnant I feel.....maybe less vulnerable and thus more able to share the experiences we have had in our journey to parenthood!

Ok do you want the rest of the story? I guess if you are reading this it means you do! Prepare yourself it's a long story! It all started when Brent and I fell in love and got married (right that's where it always starts!!) We loved each other so much we thought we should share this love with a little one! But when do we want to do that? We decided to wait 2 years. I had always thought it would be a necessity to wait at LEAST a year to get pregnant. I wanted to lay a good foundation for our marriage before throwing in hormones of pregnancy and then the stresses of a child. Brent was in school and had about 2 years left so 2 years met my requirement of time, for us, to grow together, to learn more about each other, to fall even more deeply in love, give Brent enough time to finish school, etc! Well it was a great plan! But I learned about a year later that communication was also something we needed to improve upon when I had thought 2 years meant 2 years to HAVE a kid and Brent thought 2 years to start TRYING to have a kid! Pretty big difference! So I started dreaming of a kiddo, of joining the elite pregnant club, mommy club! Well it wasn't too long before dreaming turned into longing and my loving patience faded into nagging. Everyone who got pregnant before me was just a reminder that I was not any closer to my dream then the day before. Although I got advice such as just stop taking your birth control, I tried to be understanding of my husband. I also felt that was just dishonest! A child was a decision I felt should be agreed upon by both of us and as much as I wanted to start pursuing that goal I knew it would not be a wonderfully exciting experience if one of us was not excited or happy to hear we were pregnant!! I also reminded myself, we are both young and we haven't been married that long! We have plenty of time, there is NO rush! But once I'd been bit by the baby bug it would not go away!

So finally, as in all great marriages we made a compromise, 1 year 8 months after getting married, I went off birth control! Having a mother who was "Mama peez" and got pregnant just by sneezing (I'm only kidding but I'm also the oldest of 7 clearly fertility was not an issue, except maybe being TOO fertile!) I thought for sure we'd be pregnant right away. Now keep in mind I'd been ready for this for a while, so we were serious from the get go. Charting, taking my temp. Every morning, watching for other signs of ovulation. Well after a couple months I began to wonder if I was ovulating since I wasn't really noticing the signs that are supposed to happen at ovulation! But I was new at all this and gave it more time. Four months later I began to be suspicious that something was off. Keep in mind; this was not solely because I wasn't pregnant. I knew that could take a while, up to a year is considered normal. But we were doing everything right and I was NOT noticing signs of ovulating. I talked to a good friend who is a Dula and she told me some things I was experiencing were actually signs of NOT ovulating. So I check in with my Dr. she said keep trying! Give it time! Put me on a medication for a hormone that was imbalanced in hopes that would help and said try ovulation predictor kits for 2 months, that will help us see if you are ovulating or not. Oh and use them every day to make sure we don't miss it somehow! So I peed on a stick every day. With excitement and expectation! Only to never see a positive test! Check back in with the Dr. she recommends going back on birth control for 2 months to let my body "naturally" reset it's self. That was a saddening blow. Two months of birth control plus pregnancy time meant at least a year before we had a child, and that was IF we got pregnant right away after getting off birth control again, which I knew was not likely! After my "reset" birth control we did blood tests to see if I was ovulating. I became a frequent shopper at the lab! Once a week, for two months to have blood drawn, nothing, no ovulation. The Dr. gave me the news that my body was dysfunctional (that is not how she put it of course!) and it was almost a relief! At least I had a reason why I wasn't getting pregnant! Now that we had that information we could work on it and make progress! My Dr. put me on Clomid, a very commonly used fertility drug. Explained the risk of multiples and side effects and said good luck! I got to have more blood drawn every week for two more months, just to make sure the clomid was doing its job and making me ovulate. Good news!!! It did its job! We also had Brent's swimmers tested just to make sure everything was ok there and everything was perfect!
We were both very optimistic that this was all that we needed! Just a little something to make my body ovulate and then I'd get knocked up! I was really convinced in a month or two it would happen! Well two months later, clomid, other med, pee sticks every day, and still nothing. Check in with Dr. she says lets add this drug, maybe that will help. Nothing. Two months later check back in, well let’s tries adding this med. maybe you have PCOS. Well now I'm peeing on a stick every day, on a whole cocktail of drugs, and still not pregnant! My OBGYN says she's done everything she can do and recommends a specialist!

I was trying VERY hard to not get discouraged but by this point that was becoming difficult. A whole slew of people had gotten pregnant and had their beautiful babies before I'd even gotten pregnant! It seemed like every week at church there was either a new baby born or someone else who was announcing their joyful news! I could have had a baby by now if my body worked the way it was supposed to! I prayed harder than I ever had before in my life! I hurt and longed for this more than I ever had for anything else in my life EVER! I quit going to baby showers. I'd send a gift and my love and congratulations, but it was just too hard to sit around with a bunch of pregnant women and mothers talking about how joyful children are! Anyone who became aware of our struggles had some pearls of wisdom and well meaning remarks. Which often were just hurtful, despite their good intentions. I focused on the heart of the comments rather than the comments itself but really some things people say!! There are always the stories. EVERYONE knows someone who had a hard time getting pregnant and finally did! Although thoughtful, not particularly helpful! That didn't change the fact that I was hurting, that I was still longing. Yes I knew it could happen, but the question was would it happen? Although most of the time people get pregnant there are plenty of people who never do! Would I be one of them? Was this my Heavenly Fathers plan for me? I searched my scriptures for understanding, scoured conference talks, searched of a good LDS book on infertility (not out their) and felt alone! Although Brent has been amazing though all of this, he is a boy, he processes things differently, feels things differently, and it wasn't his body that was preventing us from having a child! It was mine. I wanted to hate my body! I wanted to hate God! I wanted to hate every person who complained about their child! I wanted to hate every person who complained about pregnancy! I wanted to hate every new baby! Every time I wanted to hate someone I prayed! I poured my soul out! I cried and cried asked for strength to make it through that moment, the day, this trial. I started focusing on why, not why me but more what? What is the purpose of this experience in my life. I was reminded of the principle of "The Blessing Of Adversity" and started focusing on the blessings in my life. The blessings I had received in my life because of my trial and just the blessings I had as a living breathing daughter of God. I even made a list of blessings from infertility. It took me a while but not as long as I would have expected! When it all became too overwhelming I turned it over to The Lord (and believe me more than once it was just too overwhelming the pain and sadness were just too much to bear). As I prayed "Father I cannot do this! I know this is your will and I'm willing to accept it but you have to give me strength, it hurts too much! I cannot do this" Somehow the strength came and I had peace in my heart again. Month after disappointing month my Savior did not fail me! There were moments I was convinced had I prayed for this. Previous prayers of "Please help Brent and I to grow closer to each other and help our love to grow. Please help me to gain a greater understanding of the atonement and my Saviors’ sacrifice for me." Yep it's true, be careful what you pray for! Because I certainly got it! Not in the way I had ever imagined but those prayers were certainly answered!

So we go see a specialist. They review all the info sent my by Dr. and I'm happy to hear she's done everything right! They tell us they'd recommend Intrauterine insemination (IUI) We discuss that and feel positive about it! I'm certain that this is going to work and work quickly! I'm also VERY hopeful it will work quickly because the cost is not cheap and not covered by insurance! They recommend 4-6 cycles before suggesting moving on to In Vitro Fertilization (IVF). IVF is EXTREMELY expensive and really not an option for us! We discussed if IUI did not work we would pursue adoption. The cost was similar and I felt IVF was in our situation like gambling, adoption more like, shopping. Either way we could only afford to pursue one option! After 3 months working with the specialist my hope was running thin. My mind wondered more and more if I would ever get to experience pregnancy, feeling a child move within me. The fun of I hope they have your dimples, my eyes...... Have the joy of child birth. Being the first person to hold a newborn child and welcome them into the world. I'm not saying there is a single thing wrong with adoption. In face I still consider it something I'd love to do. But when that is your ONLY option there are a lot of dreams you have to give up and a lot of experiences you never get to have. I started browsing adoption agencies online, finding out about adoption benefits through Brent's work and tried to not become extremely depressed. I'd remind myself the one thing I really wanted was to be a mother and it didn't really matter how that happened!

Then when hope was running thin a miracle happened! We were pregnant! It's actually pretty funny I took a test and it had a very light, very thin line. I was thinking it was like the ovulation test where they reference line and the test line has to be the same so I THREW IT AWAY!!!! I thought it was negative. Then later that night when we were babysitting I told Brent and he said "I think that any line on a pregnancy test is a positive" I told him, no they have to be the same. We went back and forth about it, I was convinced I was right. We get home, I Google it, look on the paper and about died when I read "any line on a pregnancy test is a positive, even a faint line" But in reading what can cause a faint line I kept myself from getting too excited. A faint line can be a sign of an early miscarriage tubal pregnancy or other not good things. So the next morning I called the Dr. I once again headed to the lab and had blood drawn. We waited ALL DAY to get the call with the results. I was at the lab by 8 am, we didn't get the call till 5:30 that night!!! It was an eternity, but not as long as the two weeks after a procedure to when you can take a test to find out!!! When we heard, well you are definitely very pregnant I swear my heart stopped for just a moment! We were both screaming, laughing, crying!!! It was truly overwhelming! I still get teary eyed if I think about all we've gone through to get here and that I'm really actually pregnant! Once we stopped screaming we immediately kneeled down together and prayed. It was a prayer full of tears and barely audible, but I'm sure our Heavenly knew exactly how happy and grateful we were!!

A couple days later we had our first ultra sound. I got to see a heartbeat and got a picture. I cried! There was just no holding it in! There are no words to describe the joy of that moment!

Just want to give a big thank you to all those who have supported us and prayed for us, fasted with us and cried with us!!!! We love you!

A "Garden"

We planted a "garden"!! I put that in parenthesise because our yard is no where near big enough for a real garden. I'm also quite positive Bosco & Rusty would kill anything we planted in the ground. I already lost a potted house plant to Rusty's chewing & every plant that came with our yard is dead except 1! Dog pee in high doses tends to kills plants! So we improvise! We got some pots, seeds, dirt, gloves, shovels & a watering pot from Lowes came home and "toiled in the earth!" Ha not really but it was fun to plant a "garden"! To protect our little garden from the dogs they are on top of an unused dog kennel. So far they have been safe! I'm very excited for some fresh veggies! Especially tomatos!!!! Oh love a fresh, garden grown tomato!! I just wish we could have planted more!!! My in-laws have a great sized garden! It's not too big, not too small, just right. (know I sound like Goldie Locks!) Someday I'll have a great garden with all the delicious veggies I want! In the mean time I get tomatos, cucumbers, peppers & squash. Very excited for harvest time!!!

Attempted Murder!

I'm a little suspicious that Brent is trying to off me! I was cooking dinner last night, making some yummy fajitas. I get the meat out of the fridge where it had been marinating over night. I throw it in the pan & moments later a giant flame leaps out at me from under the back half of the pan!!! I scream!! I think that's pretty odd, we have an electric stove, not gas??? Then I think it must have been that a little of the oil I had put in the pan had gotten on the edge, maybe it just got too hot and burst into flames!!! Figuring that's all it was I assumed the danger had past since the oil would have burned off. I continue cooking and a few minutes later THE ENTIRE PAN BURST INTO FLAMES!!!! Thankfully I jumped back just in time to not become crispy fried! Now I'm a little freaked out!! Why does my dinner keep trying to kill me?!?!?! I'm CSIing it, oil is gone, what other "elements" are involved that could cause a fire? Then it occurred to me......BRENT!!!!! Brent had put a little tequila into the marinade (don't worry all the alcohol burns off & all that's left is yummy flavor)!!! So the tequila was catching on fire attempting to remove all hair from the front of my body. I swear I almost lost my eyebrows!!! Let it be said I'm grateful to be alive post dinner prep!!! Ok and I have to say Brent was in no way trying to harm me. In fact he was very helpful to prepare the meat and get in all ready & marinating in the fridge! He's pretty spectacular!

In case anyone was wondering our week with 4 kids went remarkably well! Not to say it was easy! Mom is the hardest job on the planet but it went well. We made it to church on time, even a few minutes early. I got all the kids in bed just fine the nights Brent was gone. I think I decided 4 is too many! Although I can't decide if it's 4, or 4 in 4 years, or 16 mo old twins!!! But either way maybe we'll stick to 2 or 3!! I did truly love seeing Brent with the kids! He is going to be an amazing Daddy! I can't wait to have little ones of our own! I know being a parent won't be easy but with Brent by my side it will be extremely doable!!! We make a great team!! We balance each other. We are sensitive to each others needs (I have to go to the grocery store or die!!). I feel very confidant that I got the best person for me! I'm so glad I get to face the rest of life with him by my side!!

Catsup

Oh wait I mean Catch up! That's right I need to catch up! I haven't blogged in a while and I've thought so many times I want to write this down! So here it goes a long catch up post!

Valentines day! For the the first time we really did Valentines day. I don't normally buy into Valentines day. I just feel it's a lame excuse for cooperate America to suck more money out of you, on flowers that magically quadruple in price, and chocolates. I even saw a commercial for a heart shaped pizza that could be delivered to your door. Will someone please tell me how a heart shaped pizza says I love you? Anyway I think Brent and I both do a really good job of showing our love to each other through out the year so Valentines day has never been a big deal. We might go out to dinner, but NEVER on V-day, too crowded and crazy. But this year a friend of mine had a great idea for a gift and I figured if I'm doing a gift maybe we can just do a full blown V-day. So we did. All be it over the course of like 2 weeks! LOL We got a room at a nice resort in Scottsdale which thanks to priceline was only $64! Great deal for a 4 star resort! (This was more for practicality then romance initially. We want to redo our floors since the carpet is trashed. We decided why not do it V-day weekend and get a room since we won't be able to walk on them for 3 days when we are done. But we have put the floors on hold due to "funding" for the moment and so then the room was kind of unnecessary but could not be canceled because it was booked on priceline! Way to go! So we were forced to have a romantic night out! Silly)Then we spent the day window shopping at the Scottsdale Fashion Square Mall. Some guy actually tried to sell Brent a 2.5 million dollar watch. That's right I said MILLION!!! Who? Why? When? Would anyone buy that watch? Beats me but apparently this sales man thought Brent might be the guy. Crazy! Brent made me a delicious dinner on V-day. And the next week we went to The Melting Pot for dinner! It is a wonderful fondue restaurant that we have hear people rave about. We've wanted to go but it's pretty pricey. Well we got a gift certificate and some coupons for Christmas and so we decided to go for V-day. It lived up to all the hype! It was delicious! And a wonderful dining experience! We ate for 2 1/2 hrs!!!! I was so full when we were done I could barley move or breath! It was very private and romantic! Perfect night out for a special occasion. Although I'd love to go with some friends, that could be really fun too! Although I don't know that we would go for the "big night out" again if we didn't have a gift certificate and coupons. Since the total was $130 for the two of us once we left a tip!!! So V-day was lots of fun but I still don't think I'm sold on the whole concept of flowers and chocolates cheesy cards etc! Just say I love you and do sweet things all year and that's good enough with me!

You are definitely going to think we are crazy when you read this next part. Last week we babysat 7 kids at one time, 3 of them were 1 yr. old! I was a little worried despite the fact that I'm the oldest of 7 and I've had lots of experience babysititng a lot of kids at once. But they were never all very young! The oldest was 8 followed by 5, 4, 3 and then 4 1 yr olds! But I am proud to report that when the parents arrived no one was seriously injured, all children were alive and happy. Two of the kids were in bed. All were in their pj's and had teeth brushed. The house was clean. And call the kids were calmly listening to a story! Yes we gave ourselves a big pat on the back. As well as saying, "man when we have 1 it will be a piece of cake!" Now we get another "parenting test" this week. The parents of the family I nanny for are going to be out of town starting tomorrow morning and they will be getting back Tuesday evening. So 4 kids 24-7 for almost a week! Wish us luck! I'm not really that concerned I'm with these kids all the time. I love them and they are great kids. I'm mostly worried about Sunday, 8 am church is going to be painful! Especially since Brent and I have a hard time getting to church on time just the two of us! And dealing with 1 yr old twins! Yikes! Thankfully my sweet friend Mary said her and her hubby would sit with us during church! It will be interesting since Brent teaches Sunday School and I'm in Young Womens. Not quite sure how that is going to work! Also Thurs and Mon nights will be fun since Brent will have class both nights so I'll get to do dinner and bed time by myself. Anyone want to come hang out??? LOL I told Brent if we survive 7 hrs with 7 kids and 6 days with 4 we should be pretty confidant that parenting will be ok!

I also don't think I've mentioned on here that I'm going to be the camp director for my ward this year! I'm so excited! I LOVED camp as a young women and hope to be able to help them have as great an experience as I had. I'm sure it will be a lot of work, but at this point I'm wondering what I even need to do! I guess I'll figure it out!

So look for updates of if we survived this coming week and how girls camp plans are coming!

*WARNING*

Watch the DIY (do it yourself) network at your own risk. Doing so may induce thoughts of ones ability to do home improvement projects by them self! The following is the result of watching the DIY network!

Before

(ok so we forgot to take before pics and this is all we got!)

During

Tearing up the laminate

Where the toilet used to be.

Protective gear

The toilet found a new home in the entry way for about a week!

After

Ta Da!

Learning

I love that the little ones I get to play with are constantly learning and saying cute things. Example during our ride home from preschool the other day the following conversation took place.

Gavin: Terina you know what I want to be when I grow up?
Me: Gavin what do you want to be?
Gavin: I want to be a policeman & a builder.
Me: That is great! Gavin those are both really great things to be!
McKinley: I want to be Tinker Bell & Aurora!
Me: Kinney that is awesome!
Gavin: Kinney you can't be that!
McKinley: Yes I CAN!
Gavin: No you can't they are not real!
McKinley: Terina tell Gavin I can be Tinker Bell & Aurora! *spoken with tears in her voice*
Me: Gavin if McKinley wants to be Tinker Bell & Aurora when she grows up then she can! McKinley, you can be what ever you want, you already are a princess so Tinker Bell & Aurora will not be a problem!

Then we talked about how Gavin's B-day is coming up he tells me how he's going to be older!
McKinley: Terina I'm older now, before I was older I was I was baby like Gage & Marley. And before that I was in Mommy's tummy!
Me: (with a laugh) Yes McKinley that's right you were. Then seeing a teaching opportunity I ask "Where were you before you were in Mommy's tummy?"
Both Gavin & McKinley *confused silence* I don't know where?
Me: You were with Heavenly Father in heaven!
Gavin: Oh yeah that's right! I learned that in primary, there's a song about that.
McKinley: I think Heavenly Father tickled us! A lot!!
Me: Silent hysteric laughter!
Gavin: I think he must have changed our diapers too! Man that must have been a lot of diapers!
Me: Uncontrolled laughter! Where do they come up with these things?!?!?!?!?!?