warning girly boob talk ahead
The things we do as women to perpetuate the population! Seriously we should all be honored for sacrificing our bodies and having babies. It truly is a sacrifice! One gladly made but a sacrifice none the less!
The aftermath of nursing is quite sad. I cried. I think I was in denial that my boobs could get any smaller. They were already so so so small before. I honestly thought they could not get any smaller. They did. I literally cried. Being so small to begin with it honestly feels a little like I don't even have boobs any more. Just nipples hanging on a little loose skin. I noticed it for the first time when I was laying in bed the other night. Granted laying in bed doesn't really help matters at all but still, gone. They are gone. There are fat kids with bigger boobs then me. There are 10 year olds with bigger boobs then me. My A cup bras are now loose fitting. Just doesn't quite seems fair. After I had my little melt down I told myself, I may not have boobs but I also don't have stretch marks, or an extra 30 lbs after having a baby, and that is good! I may have lost my boobs but I found a fullness of joy when I had Croix. It is all worth it. But I now have a greater understanding for why people have plastic surgery.
I also finally gave in and tried using cabbage during weaning. I don't know why I was so resistant, it helped tons! Yes I smelled like a salad. Yes it was a little gross. Yes it worked! I think the benadryl helped too! No more pain! Yay! I can cuddle with my boys again!